So yesterday was a pretty fun day, I had Double IT, Science, Maths then Science again. The whole day was rubbish and the only fun lesson was Maths! I love math's cause I'm with Agnese and Ashi, and there really entertaining ^_^ I've started speaking to Agnese & Ashi a lot more and there really nice people, and so funny. At break i kept poking Aggy and she came out with the funniest thing ever 'Carry on i like that, cause I'll scratch you face with my good finger' You might not find it funny but it was pretty hilarious at the time. At lunch i was on my was to Gregg's with the gang and we walked pasted Khalil and the people he hangs are with and they shouted something which i couldn't make out but Ashi assumed it was black slag, so i started screaming at him because Ashi was really offended but h actually said fat slag, which made me look stupid, so i just kept screaming at him. The day was pretty good but i think everyone thought i was being annoying and irritating cause every time i talked or wanted a hug from someone they'd say 'NO! or aw Tia your hurting me' I just can't be asked with people like that and this year I've discovered that when I'm not around everything changes much love for now ♥.

you need trust in your self before you can trust others

No one understands how important trust is until it isn't there. I suggest that trust could make you and break you, So in life nothing can wok without trust.

Once you trust yourself you will be able to trust the people around you!

I have found out that a relationship don't work with out trust. People make a big deal out of trust and i never wondered or suspected why people did, until i saw how my friend were using it. I saw that my friends were luring me in and making me fell good about myself and told me lies which would make me feel anger and hatred. They new that once i let my barriers down and let them in they could do what ever they want. I would trust them enough to let them do what ever they want. One and other would turn each of them away from me and once they had, there was nothing i could do about it, cause i was the one letting them do it. I felt like i was getting used to find out information, and when i did say something it would get twisted or used against me. I couldn't tell people what had been said or what had happen cause the person would use it against me and I'd have to confess to what i had said. I'm not very good with confrontation or admitting something i had said because i just don't like to see people hurt be what i had done, so i try and create a barrier to stop them from getting in. Its quite hard to not let the people closest to you neither your family know things you don't even want to tell your self. So when i meet someone new i tend to put on a mask and act confident and nice knowing that they judge you by first impressions, and i tend to let down my barriers and admit to things I've said or done even if i speak badly about my friends because when i let my barriers down i tend to throw everything I've done out the window and get as close as i can to them so they don't know who i really am and i can portray someone that they want me to be whilst I'm not letting them control me. Some people may say it's acting fake or lying about your self but no it's nothing to do with neither of them because your not completely changing or acting like your someone else, your just not letting them in and sharing the things you do and there nothing fake about that....

everything happens for a reason. things go wrong and things go right. at the end of it all, you just become a stronger person, and sooner or later, you realize who's really worth hurting for.♥