well i feel like shit..... its like well, i don't know :/ i just feel weird like i want to cry because I'm so angry but i want to cry because i feel so horrible. Well I've realized in the past year I've been such a bitch! I've never really noticed how rude i can be, i know i can be aggressive and rude sometimes but i didn't know people felt hat rid when i came to mind. Basically i was going threw people's blogs... I'm just going to say it! well i was going threw them and i went on Louise's and she had made it public i thought I'd just quickly check out what she had wrote about me and I saw how much of a bitch i had been to her in the past. I always thought she was a bit rude to me but she never told me what she thought off anything i had done, but looking back on it when we were really close i took advantage of our friendship and kinda took advantage of her. We'd always do thing's and she was always there for me, we had some fun memories together and ever since i embarrassed her its like none of that ever happened and i think that was the final straw of her putting up with my rude, aggressive, horrible behaviour and you know what i don't blame you. Looking back on it i feel so horrible and she was my only true friend but i was really horrible to her and embarrassed her a lot! (Louise if you read this) I know your never going too forgive me but i just want to say i am so sorry, i don't blame you for not speaking to me and i know your probably thinking it took you like a year to see what you put me threw and apologise... but i under stand, I'm not expecting you to forgive me cause i don't think were ever going to speak again but i just want you to under stand how horrible i feel and i don't blame you and i am honestly sorry!❤

sex, drugs, alcohol, makeup, hair dye, straightening your hair, curling your hair, extensions, short skirts, see through tops, being called bitches, slut and whores, death threats, gossiping, hooking up, making out, bragging, bitching, teasing, lying, suicidal notes, sneaking out, being called fat, ugly, being harassed....

all this and we're not even 16 yett

I'm tired of people pretending to care. If you really gave a damn, you'd be showing it instead of just feeding me these promises and lies.

something i need to start doing

1. stop getting offended by little things.
2. embrasse the beauty of my friends and even people i dont speak to.
3. stop caring about what everyone thinks about me.
4. do everything i want and as long as im not getting in any ones way or hurting them, dont stop until you've succeded.
5. Love your family and treat your close friends like them!

If I let you in, you’ll just want out. If I tell you the truth, you’d fight for a lie. If I spilt my guts, it would make a mess we can’t clean up. If you follow me, you will only get lost. If you try to get closer, we’ll only lose touch. Yet you already know too much, and you’re not going anywhere.

It annoys me how 1 thing can affect you so much, you can call it pathetic but if someone called me annoying I'd be so angry cause they have no right to say it. When i find someone annoying or moody i just try and not communicate with them until they are so alone they have to talk to me. You might find it rude but everyone handles different thing's in different ways. It pisses me off when i want to go some where and I've planned to do something and when it comes to it i can't, I understand why people would be annoyed but I'm fed up cause instead of someone being annoyed with me it's changed to someone calling me a liar cause i said I'd do something but because i didn't I'm lying, it don't make no sense because i haven't promised anything... i didn't sign a contract and say i swear I'd do something so i don't know why people have to act so extreme and give me a lecture..... You might not agree with what I'm saying but please just respect it!

Everybody lies, and everybody is two faced, no matter how hard people try and persuade you otherwise. Theres always the "she said this" and "have you seen her new hair", and I have recently realised that boys are also very bitchy! So I don't think people should get upset as they should when they find out someones speaking about them behind there back, unless there best mates, which I can completely understand. I wish that nobody would do this though, but thats never going to change. But the thing that really gets to me is when people bitch to you about someone, then bitch about you to that person, and everyone thinks there innocent. I also hate it when they tell the person that you've said stuff and don't mention the fact they also joined in with the bitching. The last thing I hate is when someone bitches to you, and then in front of that person, they lick there arse and worship them, and treat you like shit. This happened to me today, and it really did upset me. But when I confronted her, she genuinly didn't realise what she'd done, so I forgave her because she means the world to me. I think you should just keep your friends close and just turn a blind eye whenever people say any rubbish about you, your better than them, and at least your the main bit of there conversation!

by KAB♥

gossip bitching ass...

I thought I'd talk about arguments and bitching, I've noticed that a lot of arguments are occurred at a young age, from bitching, gossip, boys and girls.... and know body knows when to stop. I've recently discovered a gossip bitch in my year, a gossip bitch is when a certain person bitches about everyone and tries to encourage you to bitch but but when you do they go up to the person(s) getting bitched about and tells them. A gossip bitch makes you out to be someone your not!

I think its completely bizzar that someone would want to do this, but I've come to a discovery and thought all the bitching is for attention. I assume that they don't get much attention from there family or at there home, so they seek attention from week people who wont confront them and admit that the person is wrong...

I have realized that i have also done this before, but not for attention just to be heard. I had said something once to a close friend, not bitchy just in general and the gossip bitch took my words and twisted them and made me out to be bitching about one of my best friend's. So i decided to tell her close friend whom she had been bitching about, what she had said. I didn't think of the consequences but just the thought of hurting her feeling's; Bitchy you may say, no just completely honest. I hate lies and gossip so i try and stay out off it, but I'm not saying a bit off gossip is not wanted when I'm around ;/.

I also call gossip bitches a 'AS' you pronounce it as ass, and it stand for attention seeker_____ ch-aw for now slut's much love much love♥

suck ups!

Oh well, the thing that has started to grind my gears is when my friends bitch about people and run back to them when they have know body. In all fairness I'm not one to say that i haven't because I have, but I don't do it in every ones face and i try my hardest not to bitch about my friend's or even stab them in the back.

I've realized that the only thing you can do when your in this situation is, go up to the person bitching and confront them or go up to the person getting bitched about and tell them all about whats happening, But if you ever come across something and have to do either off these option's you have to be prepare to take full responsibility and own up to telling the person(s).

In a situation like this I've watched people confess about what they've done once they've been caught out, and then when the other person moans / argues with them, they haven't liked it and tried to make them self look like the victim in the situation. If the person bitching in the first place decided not to be a back stabber then none of the situations would have happened and know body would have argued or moaned at them, so before you start pointing the finger you need to look at both sides of every story.

Peace out hoes!#♥

everything happens for a reason. things go wrong and things go right. at the end of it all, you just become a stronger person, and sooner or later, you realize who's really worth hurting for.♥

A habit I wish I didn't have, huh? Actually there are two habits that I regret the most. One is that, I trust people too easily. I almost always believe what people say, and I regret this every time someone hurts me. Its like almost too easy. I wish I was stronger, I am trying to be, and not trusting people too easily. It’s hard. But I intend on trying.

And the next habit is I let people influence me too easily. Like what they wear, how they act, and what they say about me, I let it affect my personality. I am forever trying to not let others define me, but myself. However, I keep failing. Every time someone says something negative, I keep obsessing to change it. I do realize I can never change what people say about me, but I try to be like who they want me to be. I am my own person, but I wish I didn't let others influence me.

How many times were you mislead by a bewitching smile, but found a player instead.The things in life, that we sometimes take for granted are not really what it is. Some people come into our lives disguised as friends and turn out to betray our trust. We, of all people trust those who will break our heart into tiny little pieces.

No matter how much we love someone, we really cant make that person love us back. And no matter how we wish to be HIS, it’s impossible I guess. We try to be his friend, and smile, and yet he keeps falling for the wrong girl. He never realizes that he belongs right here. Why can’t he see?

OK, so currently I am obsessed with this guy, and my current story can be summed up in Taylor Swift’s “You belong with me”. There was once a chapter in my life where two songs summed up. My feelings through David Archie’s “crush” and the story of Austin through Taylor Swift’s “teardrops on my guitar”.

I guess, his chapter is over, and it’s a new chapter. This one is Falling for the guy you really cant be with. Or maybe you can, if he ever lets you! Life is unfair.