well i feel like shit..... its like well, i don't know :/ i just feel weird like i want to cry because I'm so angry but i want to cry because i feel so horrible. Well I've realized in the past year I've been such a bitch! I've never really noticed how rude i can be, i know i can be aggressive and rude sometimes but i didn't know people felt hat rid when i came to mind. Basically i was going threw people's blogs... I'm just going to say it! well i was going threw them and i went on Louise's and she had made it public i thought I'd just quickly check out what she had wrote about me and I saw how much of a bitch i had been to her in the past. I always thought she was a bit rude to me but she never told me what she thought off anything i had done, but looking back on it when we were really close i took advantage of our friendship and kinda took advantage of her. We'd always do thing's and she was always there for me, we had some fun memories together and ever since i embarrassed her its like none of that ever happened and i think that was the final straw of her putting up with my rude, aggressive, horrible behaviour and you know what i don't blame you. Looking back on it i feel so horrible and she was my only true friend but i was really horrible to her and embarrassed her a lot! (Louise if you read this) I know your never going too forgive me but i just want to say i am so sorry, i don't blame you for not speaking to me and i know your probably thinking it took you like a year to see what you put me threw and apologise... but i under stand, I'm not expecting you to forgive me cause i don't think were ever going to speak again but i just want you to under stand how horrible i feel and i don't blame you and i am honestly sorry!❤